Today I kind of feel like I hit my "mid-life crisis" 15 years too soon. Okay, it's not really that bad but...we didn't close on our house when we were supposed to, my job opportunity didn't line up at the right time leaving me unemployed for the past week, and to add to the cliche, I'm living in my parents basement. Oh, and baby talk, it's consuming my life.
The baby talk, it started when I first announced I was pregnant. Was it planned? Do I want a boy or girl? How am I feeling? How far along am I? Have I heard about (insert baby product name here)? Have I gained weight? Do I plan to nurse? Am I ready? Will I get the epidural? You're baby is late, are you uncomfortable? I wasn't me anymore, I was pregnant lady. Then baby came, and it got worse. I walk into a room with or without baby and the first question is, "How's baby?" How is he sleeping? Let's talk about his diaper output (I'm serious, people ask). Am I breastfeeding? He's so cute and chubby what do I feed him? Is he rolling? Is he sitting up? Does he want a sister? Wowza people. I'm not me anymore, I'm Nick's mom. I received so much advice and heard so many stories from other women about their experience of becoming a mom when I was pregnant. Yet no one, not one person told me that baby talk would take over my life and I would completely lose my identity as Haley and have it replaced by being Nick's mom. Disclaimer: Being pregnant and giving birth was the coolest experience of my life. Being Nick's mom is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love it, I hope I get to do this pregnancy, birth, mom "thing" again, and again, and again (sorry Austin, not again, and again...he wants 6 kids people). Baby talk is a gift, please don't stop talking to me about my little man. He's the best and I really do love bragging about my joyful, content, chubby, sweet baby. AND, I care about so many other things too. I love job searching and am excited about the new opportunities I will interview for on Thursday. I started some new projects and found some great thrifts while off work that I can't wait to start/finish. I'm trying to get back into running and it's hard. I was challenged by Sunday's sermon on growing personally and growing the church. All things I would love to talk about. I'm trying to find balance in my role as Nick's mom, Austin's wife, and being the other things God has created me for. It's so much harder than I expected. So please, help me find balance by sometimes talking to me about me, and letting me talk to you about you. And when you see a bulging bump, or you know someone is expecting through adoption/foster care, or recently gave birth or received a placement take time to talk to them about them. Because sometimes it's hard to know your place and purpose in the world when it's filled with baby talk-something that is still so completely new to me.
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Jean stone
6/6/2016 02:40:34 pm
I'm stil referred to as Emily or Austins mom , Roy's wife, Sam and Eva's daughter, Evalyn , Katherine , or nicks grandma. My boss also says this is my nurse it's kinda funny since I've been Jean for 57 years. It is special to be part of all the lives and love that comes with it.
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6/12/2016 03:35:38 am
This is also a very good post which I really enjoyed reading. It is not everyday that I have the possibility to see something like this..
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