Last weekend I graduated from the University of Michigan with my MSW. Throughout the program, I kept telling myself I wanted to start and keep a blog. A few things...okay a lot of things (class, field placement, working as a nanny, planning a wedding in 3 short months, and becoming a wife) kind of got in the way of fulfilling this goal. Not to mention writing has become a chore since freshman year of college. Even as I type this, I notice myself wanting to make sure I have great transitions, flawless grammar, and dynamic use of words. I want my work to be perfect.
Since graduation, I have had a few days to step back, reflect on this past year, and start looking forward. This time has been so difficult, and yet so necessary. It has been difficult to sit. It has been difficult to have time. It has been difficult to slow down. It has been necessary to realize that my need for perfect does not stop at my writing. Over the past several years, the desire to be perfect has become my purpose. It has been necessary to realize that this interferes with my relationship with Jesus as well as the people I love the most. It has been necessary to realize that this has taken away from God's purpose for my life. It has been necessary to realize that life is about to change, a lot. In the most sincere way, the American Dream has been awfully enticing, and in a lot of ways expected, but God is calling Austin and I to write a different story. To stop striving for perfect and to start striving for fulfillment of God's purpose. We know that writing a different story will be, at times, uncomfortable, unpopular, and misunderstood. It certainly won't be perfect. We are scared, humbled, and ready. Ready for what? We have no idea. We have packed up our apartment, quit our jobs, and move out on the 15th. Move where? We have no idea. To do what? You guessed it, we have no idea. I do know that I am excited to share the story with you. Get busy living friends.
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Connie Stegeman
8/5/2014 09:41:55 am
Excited to walk along side of you in this journey!
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Caleb Rutkowski
8/5/2014 10:01:47 pm
We are ready to see God doing crazy, amazing things in your lives. We love you!!!!!!
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